I’m in the same rut once again.
I just really hate myself and everything about my life. I realize there’s things I can change, but I don’t have the motivation for anything. I’m just overwhelmed, exhausted, and I want to give up. I want to curl up in a ball and die. I just want peace. I want clarity. I want complete serenity.
My relationships with everyone I love are so distant. I feel like everyone hates me and my anxiety makes me think everyone’s picking on me. I can’t control these thoughts anymore. They’re becoming completely overwhelming to the point where I can’t even trust my family or I think they’re talking shit about me as well. I feel like rude comments are always being snuck in a conversation towards me. It’s so fucking ridiculous because I know it’s not like this, but I get in the situation and I just want to cry because I feel as if I’m going mad inside my head. I need to find myself before I decide to really just give up and end myself.